father’s bed is made, but no one has changed his bed sheet since he died in his sleep almost two weeks ago.
there are two clocks in this room. they had been souvenirs from two different banks. and both of them let out incessant tick-tocking sounds,
which must have been the last sounds he had heard.
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i put my hand on his pillow, sit on the bed and then lie down. i immediately realize that almost everything that can be seen from this position is still the same with what i had seen when i was still a child sleeping on this bed between my mother and father.
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i get up and look at his things, scattered around his bed. never worn shirts and ties, still in their packaging. bed sheets, some old some new. house clothes, washed and folded. coins, in small plastic containers on his dressing table labeled Rp 25,- Rp 50,- Rp 100,- in his handwriting. and even more coins that he had yet organized, coins that have now been withdrawn from circulation.
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no one was allowed in this room when he was still alive. except for my daughter.