how can i not stop to see you, your hair sparkles like sunshine on clear water. i think i hear you reciting stories of kings and the psalms on your miradors. but i never see your lips move, in the garden of the orange trees.
Tag: stories
a short story
afterlife in a glass of orange juice
a pierce at the centre of my chest
i thought the sounds of the world are not that amazing
and i grew tired of my own reflection on my mobile phone screen
i was an itch that would never go away
the ghost in your grandmother’s picture
and all the while you stay still
soaked in your bathtub
rubadubdub
i like stories
ending with somebody drowning
and smelling good
“ruangan ini ditutup & disegel”
we used to look outside
commenting on the many lives passing by our window at the corner
thinking we should at least have a bit of fun while we waste ours
though only secretly
and in our big little heads we wanted to believe
take pride even
in having total control of the process
we thought this wouldn’t have happened if we hadn’t let it
and so we told stories
none of them ours
held on to the neverending,
hopefully like the night,
glasses of cheers
laughed sinister laughs
pleasant to our heartless ears
while inside
we had the suspicion this could actually be
love,
prayed hard for it,
then washed it down with
jokes
they brought tears to our hopeless eyes
then one night we held hands under the table
another we tried to look more drunk than we really were
(after you kissed me in the rest room)
and now we are looking in
at the dusts sitting in our chairs
and we walk
home
say
leaves are rustling with your hair when you look through the window, vines curl up your back telling you stories of dissipating days and dreams,
you wait for him to say
to say
you wait
for things
not to happen
for a kiss that leads to no more
for hands to let go
for words to not be said
for teardrops to fall from the brink of her nose
for the night to end
for boredom and sleep
for every failure to rest and sink in
and never be forgotten
you wait for them to stay
to stay.
first draft of this poem had been recited here
Read Me
Read me those bedtime stories again
to remind me that fairytales
exist
though only
between the covers of a book.
29 May 2005, modified 30 September 2007