terrible

dreams of a writer

don’t you wish you could have them

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

write page after page

about your blank

ly staring

at

your

 

page

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

empty like your soul

 

bare

 

like

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

your whole universe

is concentrated

onto this

bit of

 

 

space

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

endless

like skies entirely covered with clouds

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

and you can only wonder

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

about the neverending

cheap steak & chocolate cake

at a classic, not to say out of date,

fast food joint.

 

you get to watch people, too,

from the wall length mirror—

figuring out how much sugar they are taking

while they hold their lovers’ hands,

talk annoyingly loud over their phones,

gawk unknowingly at a cheesy rock star wannabe on tv

forgetting that they really are not in the privacy of their own rooms.

 

and you say to yourself,

looking at the grease and crumbs in front of you,

that’s the cost of a nostalgia.

more often than not,

some things are better left a

 

myth.

 

 

27 july 2007

sinetron tears

i feel sorry for those sinetron actors and actresses. their tears are like uncontrollable leaks on the ceilings.
pooled in buckets only to be thrown away.
just one of those things that people don’t need
but can’t avoid.

then people get used to them.
the banality of everyday life.
unsacred.
even to whose eyes they come from.